The return of the blog, at least until I get fed up of it again. I am writing this in the early hours of the morning of my fortieth birthday and at the moment I am not sure how I feel about reaching this milestone (or is it millstone) age. On the one hand I am nowhere near where I thought I would be when I pictured myself at this age when I was a child, it seems such a long way away when you're young that you assume that everything will be okay by the time you get there. Part of the problem is that I don't know what I want to be when I grow up yet. Today and New Year's Day are the two days that I find myself reflecting on the state of my life and career and getting a little depressed about both. Looking through my diaries from last August to now I should be pleased at what I have achieved. After 27th August last year I continued to produce a weekly edition of The Sunday Alternative Podcast, hosted a stage at the Hockley Hustle (which I'll be doing again this year), made a short film with some great friends/musicians which spawned a very entertaining series, been a talent show judge, made an album of Christmas songs, and braved nerves to perform my poem Shut Up and Listen on stage. Not a bad collection of things to eventually update my CV with.
This year will go down in history as one of the saddest in memory, largely because so many beloved famous people passing away, but I have to say that it hasn't really been too bad on a professional level. On a personal level it wasn't a great start of course but things have worked out okay, mainly thanks to having to go on anti-depressants. Seeing my daughter Emily for the first time in nearly two years was a boost too, it was like we had never spent a day apart. She lives in Scotland, goes to college and has a job and a boyfriend so it is understandable but it would be nice to see more of her. On one hand I am looking forward to this chapter of my life but I can't shake off the feeling of having wasted my life. This attempt at a career came late to me (I started in radio at 33 years old) so I feel as if I am constantly trying to catch up with myself. My abandoned ideas box contains things that have been there since I was a teenager.
Anyway, the bad/good news is that the blog has made a comeback. I am going to Derby to see a concert today and leaving fairly soon so hopefully this will improve.
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